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version 3.0 JULY/AUGUST 2005
Daily Blurbs;;
[062105 -- 8:12 P.M]
MooD: Calm
DON'T
Don`t take my heart if you will only break it
Don`t tell me you love me if you only fake it
Don`t say good night if there wont be a goodmorning
Don`t tell me hello if it comes later with a goodbye
Don`t come into my life if you only walk out
Don`t fall in love with me if there is only doubt
Don`t tell me to trust you if all you do is lie
[062305 -- 6:30 P.M]
MooD:flirty
Is there??
...is there any boys around that kno how tuh make a grrl feel?
that wanna make a grrl feel..
make her feel good... " ??
[062305 -- 9:00 P.M]
MooD: Dunno=[{listenin' to love songs
Smile=[?=]? Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learned
Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend love
Is not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord know its killing me
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la,
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin he might call me but he dont call me but then i
Realize dreams come true arent for girls like me not like me, and so i go around with my head
Up like it aint no thing and when the boys around with all my friends im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, lord knows its killing
Me
Its not easy (thing to do) sometimes its hard to (face the truth) its not the life that i
Would choose but what else can i do if he dont love me no if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go
everyone hurts you one way or another, you just gotta decide who`s worth the pain...
[062405 -- 12:05 P.M]
MooD: Happy
how flip r u?
I scored a 68% on the "hOw FiLiPiNo ArE yOu?" Quizie! What about you?
[062505 -- 4:35 P.M]
MooD: Happy
* 50 things, that guys should know about when dealing with girls
1. Remember, ladies first. Unless, she insists on men going first
2. When you’re in a movie theater, ask her if she’s cold. if she is.. then give her your jacket (even if you`re cold)
3. Never put your arms around her, unless you’re really sure she’s not going to object
4. If you wanna hold hands with her, ask her first. But linking arms, and linking pinkies is more adorable
5. Pay for everything she wants to buy
6. NEVER, and I repeat NEVER EVER ask her to kiss you on the lips.
7. Don’t act all tough and cool around your friends. She’s going to think you’re a loser
8. Never touch her leg when you’re inside the movie theater and it’s dark. That’s just…wrong
9. If you arm wrestle her, let her win. Because girls want to win everything
10. Don’t stare down at her shirt. That’s.. also wrong
11. Don’t bullshit behind her back. Especially to the friends that youguys share, because she will find out
12. If she’s your girlfriend, never ask… “Are you Cheating on me?” unless you’re really suspicious. Ask that question, and she’ll dump you on the spot
13. Do what she means, not what she says
14. Just because she flirts with you, doesn’t mean that she likes you
15. Don’t give her presents EVERYTIME you see her. She’ll just want to see you more often just for presents
16. The worst gift that you guys can give is a BRA, or tictacs…
17. If you’re planning a surprise gift or party or whatever for your girlfriend, don’t tell her friends about your plans.. trust no one but yourself
18. Be yourself
19. Never try to impress a girl by being someone else
20. Never make promises like… Promise me we’ll be together forever or Promise me we’ll make a family of our own, and we’ll have lots of children and live in a big house Promises can be broken
21. Girls are tough. Maybe even tougher than you guys. Don’t think that just because she’s a tiny little girl who can’t do shit, doesn’t mean that she doesn’t have friends who’ll do it for her
22. If you say she’s fat, or she has a flat chest… make sure you’re ready for what comes next
23. If you hurt her, she’ll kick your ass. Or maybe even worst…shoot yournuts off. Oh that’s gotta hurt..
24. Looks aren’t everything
25. Most guys look better with their hair spiked, eh ladies?
26. Girls always expect guys to make the first move.. SO if you`re a real guy,you`dask her out
27. AND don`t procrastinate.. ask her before it`s too late
28. Don`t talk dirty in front of girls, that`s a turn-off. (unless the girl talks dirty in front of you)
29. It`s okay to ask the girl where she wants to go on the date
30. Never kiss on the first date
31. Don`t claim her (saying that she`s your girlfriend) if you didn`t ask her yet
32. MAKE SURE your breath smells good before your date.. or whatever.. LOL (i had to put that in)
33. Friends before girl? Girl before friends? who cares Learn how to time manage so that your social life and love life are balanced
34. Guys, when you hug her.. PLEASE DO NOT rub her back, you know what I mean? It`s like.. you`re tryin to feel her bra strap or something which is definitely impolite
35. Guys, If the girl you like tells you that she`ll ask you out ONLY IF you change your image or style, don`t waste your time. find another girl who will accept you for who you are
36. IF YOU GUYS WATCH PORN.. you better not let your girl know... that`s a total turnoff
37. If you guys are at a restaurant, don`t wipe her mouth if it gets dirty. (just tell her)
38. Once you guys are hooked up, don`t talk about past relationships..
39. And guys, don`t talk only about yourself, talk about her as well, ask her questions
40. Don`t make out, french kiss, or eat the guts outta each other.. in public.. it freaks everyone out
41. don`t picture her naked.. GIRLS DON`T LIKE PERVS
42. don`t expect her to sleep with you.. we don`t think about sex at all
43. If a girl asks you if she`s fat.. don`t say... "which part?"
44. don`t hire one of your friends to spy on her (if you like her) that`s so fucking stupid
45. If you`re gonna tell her jokes, make sure they`re funny
46. Guys, don`t get into that girl-talk you don`t wanna know
47. Dinner @ McDonald`s is Ok!! Just buy her ice cream too..
48. If she wants to be alone, then give her space
49. If she really doesn`t wanna talk about something, don`t force it out of her
50. I don`t think girls really care about what`s below the belt.. So please don`t expose anything that`ll scare her away
[062505 -- 1:15 A.M]
MooD: Hyper
*JOKES
couples
[070205 -- 12:45 P.M]
MooD: Happy=]
Letthagoodtymesroll
062805-Jona's House
[070205 -- 12:50 A.M]
MooD: Sleepy
*214-February 14
-im feellin' this song
Am I real? Do the words I speak before you make feel
That the love I've got for you will see no ending?
Well if you look into my eyes then you should know
That you have nothing here to doubt nothing to fear
And you can lay your questions down 'cause if you'll hold me
we can fade into the night and you'll know
CHORUS:
The world could lie and everything may die
Still you shan't cry 'Cause time may pass
But longer than it'll last I'll be by your side
Take my hand And gently close your eyes so you could understand
That there's no greater love tonight than what I've for you
Well if you feel the same way for me then let go
We can journey to a garden no one knows
Life is short my darling tell me that you love me
So we can fade into the night and you'll know
The world could die and everything may lie
But you won't cry 'cause time may pass
And everything won't last but I'll be by your side
Forever by your side so you won't cry
[070305 -- 11:32 P.M]
MooD: bitchy
THA PLASTICS!
http://www.plastik.comhttp://www.twoface.com
I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thing
Just stay away baby
Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear you say you'll just stay in touch baby
I'll get by just fine
And if you're goin' then darlin'
Goodbye, goodbye
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend
I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'Cause all I want is just to be free from you baby
Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Just go now, go now
nagkalat ang mga PLASTICS!nd mo lam kung cno talga un mapagkakatiwalaan mo...lahat cla akala mo kung cnong mga goodyy-goody pro may baho dn pla!...pinagkatwalaan mo tapos un pla cla dn ccra sau...shit..masakit un...lyke prang wtf!...nd ko kyang makisama sa mga taong gnun..masgugus2hin kong kunti lng ang kaibigan q kysa nman marami nga na puro nman mga two-faces....dis yr talaga nakilala ko kung cno un mga tunay kng kaibigan....kung cno pa ung nd ko gaano nakikita at inaaway mostly ng mga so called "friends" q..cla pa un talagang nandyan para sakin...mahirap makahanap ng Tunayna kaibigan....=]
X) Would you makeout with #3?
WTF not with FUGLY.........lmao..she's my cuz u noe...NO!NO!wat a HOrrible nightmaree....lmao...
Y) Are #5 & #6 best friends?:
not realli dat close
Z.) Does #8 like #19?:
8 is my goddaughter's momma...get tha point!??not a chance,,,,lols..
A2) Does #10 have any pets?:
ghem my sausage..OH YEA....PIGSS....lols
B2) Is #12 older than you?:
yea but den she doesn't act lyke her age..lyke u noe...hehhe..such a kidddisshh lil gf of myne
C2) Give #13 a hug?:
kiissess n hugsss...missssin' u carmellaa...=[
D2) Is #17 the sexiest person alive?:
*cough*cough...BRANDON!????r u???nah....i'm the sexiest person alive YO......n den maybe him after...*wink..lols
[073005 -- 11:20 P.M]
MooD: Sleepy
"Sadness"
Boy and Girl`s Thought[s]
Boy:I saw her today
Girl:I saw him today
Boy:It seems like Its Been Forever
Girl:I wonder if he still cares
Boy:She looks better than before
Girl:I couldn’t stop starring at him
Boy:I asked her how things are going
Girl:I asked abouthis new girlfriend
Boy:I’d choose her,over any girl im with
Girl:He’s probably really happy now
Boy:I couldn’teven look ather without starting to cry
Girl:He couldn’t evenlook at me
Boy:I told herI missed her
Girl:He didn’t mean it
Boy:I Love Her
Girl:He Loves his new girlfriend
Boy:I held her for the last time
Girl:He gave me a friendly hug
Boy:Then I went home and cried
Girl:Then I went home and cried
Boy:I LOST her
Girl:I LOST him
[080305 -- 6:45 P.M]
MooD: Tired
"LOVESTORY=["
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
His name is Frans.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club.
I found that I fell in love with him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each over in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl.
"Frans, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
Frans: "I can`t" Why?
You need to study at home? I felt disappointment grabbing me.
No I am going to meet a friend.
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word "love" only came out of my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say "I love you" before.
To us, there weren`t any anniversaries at all.
He didn`t say anythingfrom the first day and it contineud till 100 days, 200 days Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail.
I don`t know why
Then one day...
Me: Um, Frans, I...
Frans: What? don`t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Frans: you...um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 3 words and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday filled my room,
There were many... The one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But ...lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark he still didn`t call.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of my house.Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Frans...
Frans: Here...take this... Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What`s this?
Frans: I didn`t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I`m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Frans: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he woudl remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.
Then I shouted..."Wait..."
Frans: Did you have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...
Frans: What?!
Me: Tell me I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
Frans: "I don`t want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said.Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb..and I collapsed to the ground.
He didn`t want to say it easily...
How could he!
I felt that...
Maybe he is not the right guy for me...
After that day,I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn`t call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a doll every morning outside my house.
That`s how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that... I saw him on a street...with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll...
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell...
Why did he give these to me?? Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to tbe bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept remiding myself that I am going to forget him, that it`s going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Frans: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn`t help hating him, acting like nothing had happened and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual.
Me: I don`t need it.
Frans: What? Why?
I grabbed the dollfrom his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don`t need this doll, I don`t need it anymore!! i don`t want to see a person like you again! I spitted out al the words that were inside me.
But unlike other days, his eyes were shaking.
"I`m sorry..."
He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
Bet he ignored me and just went to pick up the doll.
Then... Honk~~ Honk~~
With a loud honk, a big tuck was heading towards him.
"Frans! Move! Move away!"
I shouted.... But he didn`t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Frans, move!"
HONK~~ *Boom!* That sound, so terrifying.
That`s how he went away from me.
That`s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go throught everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person, I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I rememebered the days I spent with him and started to count the days- when we were in love..
"One...two... three..."
That was how I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundredand eighty four... four hundred and eight five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms, I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you~~, I love you~~"
I dropped the doll, shocked.
"I...lo...ve..you??"
I picked up the doll and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~~ I love you~~"
It can`t be! I pressed all the dolls` stomach as it piled on the side
"I love you~~"
"I love you~~"
"I love you~~"
Those words came out non-stop. "I love you~~"
Why didn`t I realized that??? That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn`t I realize that he loved me this much... I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it`s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much....
"Jo...Do you know what today is? We`ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do know what 486 is?
I couldn`t say I love you.....Um... since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll.. I will say that I love you..everday...till I die..
Jo... I love you!"
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? Iasked God, why do I only know about all this now? He can`t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute for that.. and for that reason.. to me..... it became courage... to live a beautiful life.
there's a limit of how much a girl can take